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[Jul 7th, 2011 | 08:32 pm]
Brady has been in Montana since Monday and will be there until this coming Monday. We have never been apart for more than two days the entire time we have been together! Probably not the healthiest thing in the world, but it's completely difficult to get used to him being gone.

Rachel came to visit for five days. I know a lot of people dislike her, but honestly, she can be a really good friend when you need her to be. She's just a bit neurotic. But who isn't?

Still getting used to my sister LIVING IN AUSTIN! It's a bit too much for me to handle at times that she doesn't live literally right down the street from me. I will be visiting her in August for her birthday though, so I'm excited for that. I've heard nothing but good things about Austin
(which is more than I can say for the rest of the state, or my experience in El Paso), and I'm really excited that they are so vegan friendly.

[Jun 27th, 2011 | 08:55 pm]
Do people still talk on the phone?
I never talk on the phone, so I'm not sure if others do. I miss having someone to chat with, and sometimes it's nice to talk to someone, even if you're not hanging out with them. But since I'm not one of those types who just calls someone up, but I'd LIKE to be, I'm not sure if it's strange. What do you say, just called you to chat? :/

Death Valley [Apr 27th, 2011 | 09:56 pm]
Well, the trip to Death Valley for Brady's birthday was great. The first day we were there, we went up on to the sand dunes, and just kind of explored around the park. The second day was definitely my favorite. We hiked up Wildrose Peak, which is the second highest peak in the park. The hike was 8.4 miles round-trip. It was such a great change of scenery and weather. At the top of the summit, you could see the lowest point in DV, which was 282 feet below sea level. There was nothing but sand and salt below. On the summit though, there were trees and ice. The weather up there was perfect. It was definitely an intense hike though. The hike up was so steep, and at one point it felt like we were just going to keep going up without any more flatness. I'm really proud of how well we did. The hike back down was just as hard though. We're used to just breezing back down the mountain when we do our usual hikes out here in SD, but because it was so steep, going downhill was a pain.
Our campsite was at 4100 feet, so the temperature was always moderate there. However, down by the dunes, the weather was fucking HOT. Mosaic Canyon was great. It was so interesting to see the way the rocks had formed, and how there were so many different colors. On our last day, we went to Darwin Falls, which is a year round waterfall. It was pretty small, and kind of crowded at the end of the falls, but it was still nice. It was basically an oasis in the middle of the desert, which was nice.
When we were leaving, we decided to take a really long way home. We went on the 178 W which goes through Sequoia National Forest, leads to Lake Isabella and goes along the Kern River for a while. It was really perfect. We were going to take the 58 all the way to SLO and then head down the coast, but we were kind of running out of time, so we decided not to. We ended up taking the 58 to the 33 which goes through Los Padres National Forest. Which is also fucking beautiful and most likely our next camping destination since it's a bit closer than Sequoia. It's ridiculously amazing how many different landscapes are in California. And it's great how we got to see so much in such a short time. It's just one more reason why I love living in California.

[Mar 12th, 2011 | 05:32 pm]
I miss Arizona.
I haven't been in over a year now I think...
I hate how things are weird between me and this certain person and I'm not even sure why. He just said things have been weird now, but not even to me. He told this to someone else who told me. Oh and he said that there was a bad experience(?) that we had or some bull shit. (At least that is what my friend told me.) Nothing happened that I'm aware of... My thoughts are that he still liked(s) me and realized that I'm still with Brady (and not leaving him any time soon). Things are different now, and we can't act like we used to. Plus, I've grown up a lot. So I guess he decided to make things weird instead. Whatever.
I hate that this always happens. Like, I can't have a guy friend without him having feelings for me.
Or... they get a girlfriend and stop talking to me.
Prime example: Kevin. Now he's broken up with his girlfriend though, so I can pretty much guarantee that he'll be talking to me again.
I have an assignment due on Monday, and I haven't even started. It's really easy though, so it won't take long.

The Vegan's Hundred [Feb 21st, 2011 | 08:13 pm]
Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
Cross out or italicize any items that you would never consider eating.
The Vegan's HundredCollapse )

[Feb 10th, 2011 | 10:13 pm]
I'm not sure if the problem lies with me just expecting too much, or if the problem doesn't lie with me. Obviously, I haven't met someone who is more compatible with me yet, so I'm not sure if it's possible. I just wish he would grow the fuck up sometimes. I get it. Women mature faster than men... blah blah blah. I really don't care though. I kind of doubt it's going to happen the way I want it to. I think this may be the way my sister felt with Justin.
90% of his personality is what I'm looking for, it's just that other 10% that I'm concerned about. Hell, it may even be more than 10%. It's not that he's a shitty boyfriend overall, because Lord knows I've had that before so I know what it's like. Do I lower my expectations? I know I'm young and there's no rush to find someone. I'm not concerned about that. I'm just concerned that I could fuck up something for no reason other than the fact that I needed to lower my expectations.
I don't really even have anyone to talk to about this. Everyone loves him and thinks we're great together. Which we are, especially in public, but it gets frustrating hearing promises that don't actually ever happen. Am I supposed to wait for forever to see if things change? Is that what a good companion does, they stick through thick and thin? I think I've done that for a while now and my patience is really being tested.
These are all just really thoughts anyway. It's not like I would do anything about it. Honestly, I think we'd both be screwed without each other right now. I know it's really fucked up to be dependent on each other like this, but what can I say... My car still isn't working and I'm in school again so I need transportation to school and work. Plus, it just works better when you have someone to help share rent. Yes, these are lame excuses if we really SHOULD break up. I just kind of hold on to them to say that I have a reason to not step out of my comfort zone.
Ultimately, I would hate losing him as a friend if we did break up and I'm not sure I could handle it.

[Jan 2nd, 2011 | 12:25 pm]
Old song, but I've been thinking about the chorus a lot today.

This is the point from which I could never return
And if I back down now then forever I burn
This is the point from which I could never retreat
Cause if I turn back now there can never be peace
This is the point from which I will die and succeed
Living the struggle, I know I'm alive when I bleed
From now on it can never be the same as before
Cause the place I'm from doesn't exist anymore

Couple of things [Nov 26th, 2010 | 09:10 pm]
Nothing too much to say, but I figured I'd update with a couple of new things...

-I should have my car paid off in 2013 if everything goes to plan...
-Is it so hard to ask for a boyfriend that doesn't smoke weed? I'm not completely a prude when it comes to drugs, come on, we know the shit I've done. But for fuck's sake, is smoking weed so much completely necessary?
-I finally deleted my Myspace.
-I still haven't gone back to school. This January should be the semester finally...
-My apartment is freezing because the heat hasn't been turned on and it's driving me and my cat crazy. She's always snuggling with me at night and normally she hates laying on the bed.
-Work is insane right now. I hope I can get out of the customer service department eventually, but who doesn't say that who works there?
-Thanksgiving was fun.
-I think I'm going to Tucson for Christmas.

God, what a completely boring life I live.

[Oct 5th, 2010 | 07:04 pm]
Sometimes I wish I were single. I love my boyfriend, obviously. I just feel like I'm being held back from certain things because we're together. I would be able to do more things spontaneously and go wherever I wanted without having to think of both of us being able to go.
I know that there are many things I couldn't do WITHOUT him, like paying for my car, or living without a crazy roommate, but he definitely keeps me from having complete freedom. I know these are things that come with having a relationship, and there are things that people give up to have the positives of a relationship, but sometimes it sucks. It's not his fault; he's not doing it on purpose...
I just imagined myself in a different position when I thought of my future and we weren't together. I had imagined I'd be traveling much more, which I have done pretty much the equivalent of none.
Eh, I guess that's life.

1524 down [Sep 4th, 2010 | 10:11 am]
Well, I've paid off 1,524 of my car loan, only 10,270 to go...
Haha, how sad that this is exciting...
Need to refinance that shit for a better loan, stat.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. [Sep 3rd, 2010 | 04:35 pm]
1. Share my love of food.

2. Have a Boston accent.

3. Bake me cookies or any goodies.

4. Grow your own vegetables.

5. Watch the sunset/sunrise with me.

6. Understand my love of the ocean.

7. Kiss the backs of my knees.

8. Buy me flowers.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself. [Sep 2nd, 2010 | 07:09 pm]
1. I love my cat, Twix.

2. I have an older sister who is moving to San Francisco at the end of this year.

3. I'm not currently happy with my life.

4. I love Brady.

5. I'm really interested in being healthy, and growing my own vegetables.

6. I hate how I can never make a decision.

7. I have about a million tattoos planned.

8. I try to not really trust anyone, but I always end up trusting the wrong people.

9. I have a ton of different dreams that I can never really narrow down.

[Aug 29th, 2010 | 07:47 pm]
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day OneCollapse )

[Aug 19th, 2010 | 09:37 pm]
I need a new job.
I'm so over this monotony.
I hate pretending like I care about this bullshit and that I love hearing customer's ridiculous remarks. I hate acting surprised like I haven't heard this a million times before. I hate getting a lower score on my quality observation just because I didn't laugh at a customer's stupid joke.
Also, I'm really tired of just staring at the screen all day long. Typing all day long. The same fucking thing all day long.
I really do not have a normal schedule at all... Midnight is now like my 8PM. I go to sleep really late, wake up late, and then have to be at work 2PM. Trying to do things before I leave to work at 130 is pretty much impossible.
I wish I could just go on an extremely long vacation, but I have no money ha.

Writer's Block: Capital offense [Jul 16th, 2010 | 09:23 am]

What is your opinion of the death penalty? How important is this issue in deciding which political candidates you support?

First question listed was submitted by vanishing_act18. (Follow-up questions, if any, may have been added by LiveJournal.)

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Beside the fact that I'm morally opposed to it, I believe the death penalty is a complete waste of time and energy. It wastes our money and resources, along with the fact that it does not serve as a deterrent.
Politically speaking, I'm what Sean likes to call himself, an "Apathetocrat". So generally, I do not really support any political candidates. However, if there are any candidates that I am interested in supporting, their opinion of the death penalty is not an extremely important issue, as I realized a long time ago that my opinion of the death penalty is the minority.

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